Rollercoaster...

Slightly more upbeat post than the last one. Sometimes its all a matter of perception, huh?
-Goodnews, Studylink has decided it will pay me afterall!! And have even given me backpay! Yay! I can afford the rent again!
-I do have lots of good friends, I just have to cherish the friendships and look after them otherwise they fall away. Plus I think its good to have about 4 close friends in whom one can confide. I'm sure they all know who they are, but thanks to cool people like Reuben, Haley, Ruth, Christina, and Adam.
Big Big thanks to Christina for being so awesome, and such a great friend this year. I've needed you heaps, and you've been so caring and supportive. And you hassle the socks off me about a certain boy... which makes me grin like a fox!
Speaking of which, a Certain Guy makes me grin like a fox in general. Go you!

I didn't go to church this morning. i stayed home and read lots of Pauline epistles... Heh. I'm studying Worship, trying to work out exactly what the Bible says about it. I'll post when I come to some conclusions.

DONT FORGET TO COME TO THE BALL!! I HAVE TICKETS IF YOU WANT TO BUY THEM OFF ME. $30 EACH.

Anyway, its going to be a busy next 3 weeks... I have the Ball, my birthday, my 21st Party, two 25% tests, and surely some other stuff inbetween!

Finding that desert place...

I was lying in bed last night, lamenting the trouble i'm having with sleeping lately, when my brain started to go wild. It started to think along tracks I've been avoiding, and ponder issues that i've glossed over.
Something is askew in my life and I like it. I'm happy here. I don't want to re-join the rest of society and be active.

My average day goes like this: alarm goes off at 8.15, get up at 8.45, get breakfast and read the paper. Waste time online, 10.30 have a shower and get ready. 11.45 get some lunch. Go to class at some stage in the afternoon, while surrounded by time wasting. In the evening, waste some more time. Go to bed at 11pm.
I have a very fulfilling life.
I am happy being unsocial and doing sweet damn all with my time.
Really?

I go to a different church every week
I stopped going to cellgroup cos I couldn't see any point to going
I dont have regular contact with anyone over the age of 25 or under 18
I've somehow dropped all but about 3 or 4 friends off the close list
And I don't really have any non-christian people around me
I don't take part in any social activities
And most stupidly, I dont read the bible every day cos i dont know what to read, and I don't pray every day because I can never think of anything to pray for.

Go back and read it all again. I'm a loser!! (In the nicest sense of the word)
Sometimes I can't believe how pathetic I am....

I ~want~ to get involved in some sort of helping-the-community thing
I yearn to have a church family I can be part of
I desire to be a better friend to more than four people
I'd love to have more social things i'm involved in
And most importantly, above all else, I want to be a daughter worthy of my Father's name. I want to bring Him glory and honour, and have him proud to call me his child.

I think i've got some work to do! Anyone got a prodding stick I could borrow?

Friday and Saturday

I should have posted this on Friday when I was feeling good, cos by the time it got to yesterday some bung things had happened and I didn't feel like posting. But anyway - Thankyou so much to everyone who prayed for me about Uni courses. I had such a stressful fortnight, and even cried a bit (oh no! A sign of weakness!)... but eventually found an awesome Political Psychology class (eg. why do people vote? What is the motivation behind party leaders decisions?) that is going to be awesome. I went and enrolled myself for it on Friday, which was such a load off my mind!
I even felt so good that I went to the gym!! Yay! Go endorphins! (and i have sore muscles now!!) And I even saw this guy at the gym, who said he was disappointed that I had a boyfriend, "well happy for you, but not happy for me" ... lol. Very weird!!!!
So all in all, Friday was a rather interesting day!

Then Saturday I discovered that Studylink has once again (after numerous letters saying 'no we wont pay you', 'oh wait, yes we will', 'oh no we wont', 'finally we have decided, yes we will pay you') decided not to pay me. -$170 later.....
Its not like i don't have enough trouble with money without them taking away the little scrap they give me!!!
The Little Prince sums up how I felt:

"-J'aime bien les couchers de soleil. Allons voir un coucher de soleil...
-Un jour, j'ai vu le soleil se coucher quarante-trois fois!
Et un peu plus tard tu ajoutais:
-Tu sais... quand on est tellement triste on aime les couchers de soleil...
-Le jour des quarante-trois fois tu était donc tellement triste?
Mais le petit prince ne répondit pas."

(But I blew bubbles rather than watching sunsets)

But then last night I had the 21st of a school friend, so that was cool to catch up with people who I hadn't seen for a while. =)
Am now very very tired after many late nights, and shall be in bed at 8.30pm tonight. (i hope)

Maybe more substantial posts coming later.

Come. To. The. Ball.

The Ball The Ball The Ball The Ball The Ball The Ball The Ball
comecomecomecomecomecomecomecomecomecomecome

yeah. Thats basically all i have to say about that. But I will give you all the details again just in case you didn't get an email =P

The Canterbury and Lincoln Universities' Combined Christian Groups Ball for 2005
Date: 6th August
Time: 8pm until Midnight
Venue: Addington Events Centre
Cost: $30 a ticket
Theme: Narnia (eg. CS Lewis, the Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe)
Other info: The Ball is aimed at University-aged people, so keep this in mind, and invite your friends!! Supper is provided, there is a cash bar available, there will be a Jazz Band, and a DJ, and lots of potential for making new friends (and having lots of fun!)

We want to see lots of people there! So if you want a ticket, contact me by email, text, phone, or comment....

Come to the ball, girls girls, come to the ball *jigs*
Come to the ball, guys guys, come to the ball *lure*
Comeon, Strongbad endorses it! =P

Help!!!

Meh... i hate asking for stuff, but i'd really appreciate some prayer at the moment. I've had more problems with this Political Science (POLS) course...

Problem:
-I need to be enrolled before Friday to get my degree. (So I have less than four days)
-I have six courses to choose from.

Spanner in the works:
-I got a D for my last POLS essay. Not good when you're in your final year. (Overall for the course I got a C+. Not exactly inspiring)
-I am not as 'clever' (for lack of better word) as other POLS students, and often don't understand the theoretical concepts, etc.

So yeah, I'm really confused about all this at the moment. I've narrowed it down to three courses that hopefully I am capable of doing. I am going to go and see the lecturers tomorrow and get some help.
Please pray for clear head, direction, wisdom, and calmness for me. And that God would show me his purposes (as I believe it was Him who led me to POLS in the first place), and really be a refuge/rock/strong tower for me.

Thanks heaps, i really appreciate any prayers/advice =)

goodbye to more wisdom

*sigh* i feel like such a retard. Its just taken me 15 minutes to eat a small plate of spaghetti and one slice of white bread (sandwich). I can only poke my tongue out half way, and i can only open my mouth wide enough to fit a teaspoon in.
I had my third wisdom tooth taken out yesterday, and felt fine for most of the day. Yay! Today however I tried to be staunch and not take any pain killers, and its just this constant dull ache, with the occasional pang, plus my cheek is swollen like i'm carrying an acorn in my mouth.
I cried before. *embarassed face* Its so hard to eat, and i feel retarded.

*scowl*

irony

Date: 10/03/2005

Greetings and salutaions Adam Moffat,
I would like to cordially thank you for your kind invitation to the camp that
will take place with the Navigators this weekend.
Unfortunately, well fortunately for me, I have discovered a superior christian
group, named the Christian Unions, and i will be attending their camp, which I
am sure will be more funner and exciting than any you could produce.
In addition, their name implies that there may be a chance for me to create a
Christian Union for myself. I would like to believe this is similar to a Civil
Union, but without the ungodliness of that union. Perhaps the navigators could
work on that aspect of their group.

All those unpleasantries aside, I would like to wish you the best time at your
stunning location of (the name of the camp has vacated me).
May the Lord's grace shine apon you as you seek to learn more about Him, and
develop your friendships with his followers,

Gratuitously yours,
Mystery Jodphur Wearer number 168
(mjw168)

Yeah. I bet God has a good laugh at his own cunningness when he sees things like this.

He made me do it.....

Y'all wanna know who's really cool? AJ. Yeah. Just a bit of publicity for his blog. AJ makes sexy jealous. (well according to himself). Anyway go to his blog. (he's grinning like a ferret as he reads this) ("its cos i'm so adorable" - AJ's reasoning for why he's grinning)

In other exciting news *sarcasm alert* I managed to miss my lecture this afternoon as well. Yeah. But I got almost all the things on my 'to do' list done....
Not sure whether its victory or defeat.

Hehe. I snorted milk out my nose tonight. It was funny yet rather uncomfortable.

"one day when i'm in a secure, loving relationship I'm going to be happy in the knowledge that at least three other girls think i'm huggable" - AJ. Read his blog and you'll know. He's referring to me, Ray, and Christina. pfft.

Anyhoo.. thats enough posting for today. I'm off to think about Adam.
(*puke* just kidding ;) )
(I thought i'd better mention Adam cos i talked lots about AJ) (Adam is cooler than AJ) (sorry Aj)
Alright thats enough of that.

More reasons for you all to disown me!

*sigh* I've been in holiday mode for too long. Look down and see what time this was posted (which is actually the time I started to write it). Yeah. Didn't I have class at 11am? Yeah. Let me enlighten and explain to you why not many, if any, of you will still want to be my friends after reading this. (you know i'm joking, right?!)
I am a pillock!
A great big pillock.
I am mostly in jest when I write this, but bits of it are true (if exaggerated!)

This morning.
8am My Boss at the Flying Rooster (who is rather cool as far as bosses go =P) wanted me to babysit for her this morning. We've been playing phone tag all weekend, but I set my alarm for 8am this morning, got up at
8.30am and called her. I told her that I had class from 11-1 so couldn't really babysit.
8.45am I got some breakfast and sat down at my computer
10.08am I got off and went to have a shower. My hair looked nice this morning, and it was as cold as a penguins toes, so I decided not to wash my hair and have a short shower.
10.35am (I wasn't in the shower all that time. Not quite anyway) I arrived back in my room and started to 'get ready'. Thats 10.35 I said. This is Me we're talking about. Does anyone know how long it takes me to get ready in the morning?! I am a slow poke, a procrastinator, an easily-distracted time waster, who no matter how fast I go, how many steps of the getting-ready process I cut out, still manages to be late.
10.40am I put on too much eyeliner, look like a goth, and can't get it off.
10.45am I realise that all that time in the shower (even with a showercap on) has made my hair frizzy and dry, and it looks tres awful. Seriously! For those of you that dont know about my hair, it is halfway between my armpit and my waist, very thick, curly when it wants to be, and very tempermental. It needs to be washed every day or else it looks scruffy and bouffy.
10.46am I remember that my class is 11-1, and, for those of you who've not read my last whining, covers lunchtime, thus meaning I shall need to grab something rather substantial to tide me over the next 2 hours. (As i've only had one piece of toast so far)
10.47am I realise that I don't even know what classroom my lecture is in
10.47.23am I realise that There Is No Way I Can Finish Doing My Makeup, Do My Hair, Eat Something, Get Dressed Properly, Find Out Where This Class Is, Start My Car (sluggish on cold mornings) And Get A Park At Uni within the next 13 minutes.
10.49am Sit down to blog about what a dick I am *grins widely*
10.59am Realise that i am sitting here typing looking like a hot swamp thing -half-dressed (with a wet towel gradually soaking the chair and my underwear), bed hair, and tarty eyemakeup. Decide to put some jeans on, do my hair, get something to eat, write a to do list, and make the most of my laziness.

So thats why you wont like me anymore, I am a bit of a prat! But then again we all knew there was a slim-to-no chance I would make it to an 11am lecture after 5 weeks without lectures, and not having done so in the previous 7 months. Anyway now i'll know for Wednesday....
Goodbye from the King Prat!

The root of all evil is money.

I hate money. I really really hate it. I wonder, in all seriousness, if like how the love of money is the root of evil, if maybe the hate of money could be evil as well? I hope not.

Money is something I never have very much of. Especially this year! I am truly a poor, struggling student, with only $5 spare a week. (Thats after paying for petrol) (speaking of which... my goodness. Are they trying to make us all bike?! Thanks Scott for pointing out the heinously large amounts of tax that petrol cost is made up of) Recently I've had to pay for the Physio (stupid neck), the Dentist (stupid wisdom teeth), new clothes (stupid cold weather and old ones ripping), etc etc.
But, whenever I get money, eg. Mum kindly donating me money to buy a warm wool jersey, Grandad paying me (too much) so I can go get my rego (that *cringe* was nearly 3 months overdue), Mum donating me more money for a wool jersey cos the last lot got used on other stuff; it does just that - get used on other stuff. I'm not saying Ray and I don't need $21 worth of Pizza, but... (just kidding. It was only $15) (and Ray paid)

I have a $10,000 loan, not much compared to those engineers (who's laughing NOW eh?) (whats that? At least you'll get a job? Hmm... might have a point there), but its still a little thorn in my side.

On a larger scale, what about poor African countries? I bet they hate money. I wonder if trading or bartering would be better...
I dont have time to elaborate on that... Sorry :)
Just wanted to rant about not having any money and hating that.

So there you have it.
But i'll leave you with a happy thought: Squirrels paddling a raft down a raging river of DEATH. Lol no, happy for some perhaps!
(you just lost the game)

Death is at hand.

A new post! Shock horror! Well not really... I *did* only post on Saturday! But this one shall contain....er.... stuff... yeah. Stuff that I have actually forgotten about. Wait there whilst I ponder.

Oh yeah! (i just sat there for 10 minutes) I've just remembered! This post is about.....



....The Death of the Ultimate Arts Student.
(din din diiiiiiin)
*sigh* I am no longer the Ultimate Arts Student. Last semester I had 5, yes FIVE, hours of lectures a week. (it was supposed to be seven, but I had a clash) (Either way, that was the least hours that anyone I'd talked to had) (AND i was still a full-time student) (But, I had stacks of readings inbetween) (I can already hear the taunting voices of the engineers.... ) (Speaking of which, Adam, manly engineer that he is, is dating me... Ultimate Arts Student. *raises one eyebrow* I can smell the mockage from here!!) (I mean, not me! I'm not mocking him! I think he's a very clever guy!!)
(enough with the brackets, methinks)
Anyhooo... I didn't have any morning lectures last semester either!

This semester is looking to be teh suXX0r. My official class is 4-5 Tuesday and 3-5 Thursday, which is good. I have to choose between two other classes, one of which is Monday and Wednesday 11-1 (a morning AND a lunchtime!!), and the other is Monday 3-5 and Friday 12-2 (lunchtime again). Gar!! I like having lunch at home 'cos I'm too fussy to think of stuff for lunch at Uni.
(Oh the poor Arts student... *the sound of the worlds tiniest violin playing is heard in the background*)

I think thats all... There was something i thought of last night that I would like to rant about. Oh yes. I remember. Maybe another time.
Maybe another post =)
I'm going back to skulking around making "woe is me" faces, lamenting the loss of my lunches at home, (Although i'm feeling more and more like I wanna do the course that isn't 11-1) and my extra two hours of lectures per week....

Goodbye Ultimate Arts Student. I shall miss you!

THE Ball.

My Boyfriend told me to post. So post i must.
=P

The Ball is coming soon!!
Its the 6th August, from 8pm onwards, will be $30 a ticket (includes supper), buy your own drinks, theme is Narnia.
Come, my pretties!
(Venue to be advised really soon)

Hellooo fans!

Heh - i don't have much to say really....
So, because I feel like i've neglected my blog lately I will try and post something mildly interesting.
Or not.

The blogging epidemic continues to spread...........................
So I shall say HI to my newest fans.... Craig, Joy =), and Jazz.
Craig is awesome... You're the man, Craig. (I'm dating Craig's brother.. so I should start with compliments as early as possible *grin*)
Joy =) actually helped my Man Thing sort out his feelings, etc, and that resulted in her becomming an avid blog reader, heh heh. Yay! Go Joy =)
Jazz.... Jazz has turned to the darksaide and gotten her own blog.

Okay, well I think thats all I have to say about that.