*sniff* somebody hold me!

everyone will have to be nice to me over the next few days. (yeah, 'have to' ... you get no choice!!) Joy's leaving on friday to spend a few days in the North Island before she goes home...
Today was the last day i will see her.
I dont want to sound pessimistic, cos i'd much rather be an optimist (not to such a silly eternal optimist degree that Dan is, but to still be hopeful) but i dont realisticly know if i'll see her again.. ever. And i didnt cry about it today, i saw Joy's eyes watering, but i generally dont feel the punch til afterwards - i've farewelled so many exchange student friends and i've only once cried at the airport.. emotions are for the weak.. *beats chest and makes the Tim Allen noise* lol!
I will let myself cry sometime... when its dark... and theres no one else around... and i dont have makeup that will get in my eyes. yup. I dont want to say too much now, cos i have to go out now...

Today was really cool... Dan and i 'kidnapped' Joy... took her to Joy Street and Daniels Road, and took pictures, then played in a playground, then we went to the Art Gallery and took strange pictures outside, had a wee look inside, then fed ducks (no duckies at the Botanic Gardens).... was cold outside. But it was nice to just spend a day of silly things =)
I'll post the pictures, or email them to 'you' if you want... =) (when i get them um... loaded (?) on to the computer thingee. yeah. )

i am a warrior.

I've finally decided i need to get off my butt and do something! (finally!) I was such a gym bunny all first term, then didnt go back all the second term... so while its holidays i've been doing home-exercises to get me muscles working again! I know Nato's already posted about this sorta thing ages ago, but there are certain types of music that just inspire you and make you feel like a warrior, or in my case, a secret agent. Toby Mac's Extreme Days, and Klaus Badelt's Downhill Games .. are great tracks. In fact, the Extreme Days album in general makes me feel like i'm an agent on a mission, hee hee! Feel the burn =) If anyones got any tips for an equivalent to crunches that dont bust ones neck... send them my way!

random thoughts from the last couple of days

some random stuff
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Its better to be silent and look like an idiot than to open your mouth and prove it

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"when im not sure what im living for
when im not sure what im looking for"
Wow... that really hit me today - its part of a Garbage song... off the Buffy album. And it struck a cord with me. Its like these 13/4/5yr old youth group girls who dress like they're going to a brothel... they're not sure what they're living for. So they dont know what they're looking for - friend-wise, man-wise, life-wise...
its like me when i was confused last year, if im not really sure about whether or not im living for Christ, then of course im not gonna be sure about what sort of man im looking for. If im not making a firm stand for christ, then im not going to be looking for a man who is. Yeah, im not trying to go anywhere with this. It just made some sense when i heard the line of the song today. Dont think i really saw it at the time, but i see it clearly now...

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I have a problem with feet, lol. i only really realised it the other day.. i hate feet... wont touch them.. they're gross. So because i have so many strange fears, i figured i should overcome this one, so i made Estie put her feet in water and i exfoliated and moisturised and massaged them. Yup. it was a bit gross. But i managed it. Lemme announce to you all that Estie's feet are the only feet i have EVER touched (apart from my own, my dad's ONCE, and maybe some babies)... yeah... feet are gross. maybe now ive done it once i will be able to do it for other people?

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i gave a guy a back massage the other day... not too shabby eh? another weirdness barrier slightly overcome, although it is still weird. Feet are intimate, backs are intimate. i think massage is about bringing pleasure to another person, and that can be weird. Dunno if i'll be doing that again soon

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lol.. My brother was really good friends with this guy, M, when he was younger, and then they drifted apart. M was in the army, and he is occasionsally down at our church. The other day my brother was complaining about not having many friends, and M was at our church on sunday. So i asked him over to tea. Cos i know my brother is too shy to ever do anything like that. kinda like setting them up. but as friends, lol. i hope its not like im meddling. i know my brother needs a good christian guy to influence him, and show him that people do care about him. Only downside is, i'm cooking tea. i hope i dont poison him or anything, then he might never want to come back lol.
Oh just for laughs, he was one of the many many many many many (you get the picture) guys i have had crushes on in my lifetime. I liked him from when i was about 9 to about 12... lol ha ha ha)

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i think i almost got chatted up in the petrol station the other day!! ten points to petrol station guys. they're usually a really nice bunch, dont laugh at you when you cant get the petrol cap off your parents car (ha ha) tell you you have lovely hair, and i even had the door opened for me 3 our of 4 times, all by different men. Nice effort fellas. I'd like to see some more of that eh?!

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i just told my guy friends they were weird for calling each other hot. and they said they'd marry one another if one was a girl. But after i called them weird i realised that i'd marry Esther if she was a boy! Esther's great. If any boys out there think they're like Esther... i will marry you in an instant, lol!
Michelle: "When Esther and i get married, everything will be perfect"
Esther: "yeah, we'll touch each others feet every night"
crikey... i dont know about every night, lol...

tonight, 25th, 8.30 McDonalds Riccarton... farewell dinner for Joy

((hermil girls is lovely... go you wee beauties!))

TONIGHT: 8.30 PM Mickey Ds in Riccarton, near the mall... (the golden arches, maccas, McDos, you know i'm lovin' it)
WHAT: 'Formal' dinner party for Joy (who cares if you dont know who Joy is, what a squirrel smells like, or why sponge bob never changes his clothes -- come along anyway!) (Joy's leaving to go back home real soon, so this is your penultimate chance to say "bye" / "you have nice hair" / gimme some of those cookies" / "have you ever eaten a cat?")
THEME: (every good shindig has a theme) "Random, with a touch of squirrel"
So yeah, come along in proper formal dress, op shop groove, psychadelic skintight funk, or true blue squirrel do. Anything goes really. As long as its random. If its anywhere near normal you'll be taken out to Rangiora and initiated into the ritual of cowpat chewing....

Be there, or be ROUND!

boys/girls, getting hurt, and hurting others...

Slightly revised post...
Paul and Jess... i really want to post on your boy/girl/friendship discussions... but cant think up anything that really directly ties in.. so maybe its better if i just come up with something i can rave about for a while. (Just in case anyone was wondering, i DO do serious, occasionally.. i mean if you looked at my blog for the first posts it was very serious.. i had to silly it up a bit.. yup.)

Just a wee note: for those of you that find ambiguities or supposed biblical contradictions in my rantings, you're probably wrong. Often im just being hypothetical and you've misinterpreted it... i am genuine, and really ache to be that godly woman God wants me to be. Ask me if you're not okay with something i say.

I think, Jess, that men DO actually have feelings. Sometimes it seems to us like they hurt us and hurt us and dont ever get hurt themselves. But ive been talking to my friend in Scotland a lot lately, and he's been hurt a bit by girls, which is kinda reassuring. Plus he reassured me that there are nice committed guys out there who are worth it. =)

sometimes its even the other way round re. Christian and non-christian boys. I've had more non-christian boys tell me they think im awesome and would be keen, and they can often make you feel better about yourself cos they are okay with affirming you. I think there's a bit of stigma with christians sometimes, where you hope that by not talking about having actual feelings for someone else, the issue might go away. Or if you tell a christian girl that you appreciate her friendship she will think you want to marry her.

So in answer to your question, Jess gurl: (pleeeeeese dont everyone bag me for this) i think i can see where cheating could be more interesting/ exciting than a commited relationship. sometimes i think it would be easier (of course this is in the ideal world where there are no consequences to our selfish actions) to have a whole lot of guys on the go at once, no commitment necessary, no hurt feelings. Flirt all you want, have it any way you choose. I think its only 'human nature' to want what is bad for us. But im not saying its good to think this way, im just acknowledging that i know i do it sometimes.
Unfortunately (?) it doesnt work this way... feelings are always gonna get involved... yup. no matter how much you dont want to let your heart get involved in something, it always does.
I used to be friends with a guy, who had a girlfriend, and he would often text me and ask me to come over and visit him. i wouldnt go often, but he'd try and kiss me goodnight, and i would push him away, thinking man.. if i was his girlfriend, i'd be really hurt by his flirting with another woman. I think its guys like him who ruin it for a lot of other guys out there who are really HOT (holy, outrageous trustworthy, for a good laugh read the book.. most of its crap, but theres a little bit of good advice in there), and are awesome.
And on the flipside, a lot of girls just play around with guys... and im sure there are heaps of guys with broken hearts out there that just dont talk about it, cos its not cool for boys to have feelings.

Its really sad that we hurt each other so easily... that the little things we say can cut so deeply into another, even without our realisation, or without intent on our behalf. And through all my experiences i would often believe that "relationships with the opposite sex" (usually in a more-than-friends way) is the biggest problem facing us. Its certainly the area in which i've been most hurt, and which i've done a lot of hurting of other people. When i was younger i would quite unapologetically play with guys' feelings then when they actually got interested i would leave them hanging, hurt. And its so sad that we continue to this as we grow older, and mature. Not in such obvious or malicious ways, but simply because we are creatures of pleasure and feeling, and when we arouse either of these senses we tend to do stupid, incoherent things.

So, Jess... i hate all the hurt i've been through. I know a lot of it has made me stronger, but it still leaves a scar. And on the other side, im sorry for all the hearts ive played with or unintentionally broken over the years. boy/ girl relationships are the thorn in our side, yet can also be such a blessing in our lives!!
wouldnt life be heaps simpler if we didnt let our hearts get involved in anything.

one down... no coffee, stupid answers, and michelle is (almost) back to normal, no. her former self =)

thats one down, one to go... i feel really sick, i've got a nasty headache... and that exam was reeeeally hard: take this for a question:
What led NASA to pronounce that 'we have a better global map of Venus than we do for the Earth'?
and
How did they propose to remedy the situation?

i know about as much as you do (which is hopefully not a lot) so i put..."there are too many clouds around the earth to get a good view" and "they will go to the moon and take pictures from there"
nothing like a litte humour to lighten the markers day.... and it will sweeten them up for the rest of the paper (it only gets worse)

check out this blighter
Given the option of using images created with any two parts (bands) of the electromagnetic spectrum, which TWO bands would you choose to work with in order to map vegetation?
um... im sure they never covered this in class... SURE I SAY!! ive no recollection of the electromagnetic spectrum... (apart from hazy memories of 5th form science)(very hazy at that)... and geez... mapping vegetation using electromagnetic thingeemabobs?

And just so you can all have a laugh at me (again) (before i head off on my half hour drive home, i got the family car... so i can go faster... but theres no burn-off-at-the-lights capability at all =( (not that i ever do that... of course not...)
Name FOUR main types of soil erosion caused by running water
"the type that occurs in the rift valley in kenya"
yup
im sure they'll appreciate my innate sense of knowledge...

And when i left, after 1.5 hours, i was the first person to leave... probably scared the willies out of everyone else in the class... James Height wouldnt serve me coffee... i was 7.5 minutes too late... DAMMIT!! how will i drive home!!

okay, well thats all the posting for me now (the glutton)
TOODLES!! see you all on the flip side... there'll be no more blogging/ posting from me until after 7 tomorrow... (oooh, big compromise i hear you mock... well i say =P bleeeeeeh take that!)
and if anyone wants to do something for Joy on either Friday (Ruth's vote) or Saturday (everyone else's vote) pleeeeeeeeze ring me (should i give my number out on the internet? i guess not... go to the CU site for my cell number otherwise email me =)

the deranged rantings of a half-witted strung out hamster-dead rangoon

i know i posted on this last night... but my mind is ranting away so i have to do it again tonight. well nathan suggested it, cos hes scared (i think) of the insanity i am rambling in his direction, and told me to speak to the blog instead. i like that idea... except for the fact that there are now more than 3 people that read my blog, and now all of you will know for a fact that i am actually insane. (rant rant rant) i want to go to bed, but i cant, cos im not quite sleepy enough yet, and i know that if i go now, i will just lie there and rant away for a while. and then i will never get to sleep... sleeeeeep....
so i am going to share with you me sally in the sea all the strange thoughts, no i lie, some of the strange thoughts that i had this afternoon.
My coffee is a little too dark. its not that good... not the best cup of coffee i've ever had. i made the almost-best cup ever the other day... i think it was sunday. it was some jolly good coffee. yeah. and i wanted to find out if its decaffeinated. and ive searched and searched, even getting up on a chair to see into the cupboard (curse of the short), but i cant find the packet. So i dont know if its sans caffeine. I know that the tea is decaff. Which is good. i dont think i need caffeine. (maybe the coffee isnt decaff and thats why im feeling weird now). My walls arent painted properly. they are peach, but someone painted over blue wallpaper, no undercoat... and i think i could do a better job. I AM HANDY ANDY. well i would like to be. well i dont know if i would. i dont like tools... they are for men. i just like to think i could do a better job than everyone else. probably couldnt though.
this morning in the bathroom i made scooby doo howls.. it was rather liberating (no one was home)
just in case you are wondering, my brother works 8.30-5, my dad words 8.15 til 5, my mum has been working 8.15 til 3.30, so i have been by myself a lot. which explains tout. TOUT I SAY! posting to this blog isnt actually me talking to YOU as in Estie, Paulie, Philotas, Brehaut, Nathan, etc... it is my overworked brain spewing out its thoughts which i have been speaking outloud to myself all day. so if you are ready to stop reading NOW then just stop. dont feel bad. i probably wont notice. i'll be too busy dancing a jig along the hallway singing "you are the one i want/throw me a lifeline/how could someone so beautiful, feel anything for me/your love makes me whole, makes me better, your love endures" i think that maybe in my exam tomorrow instead of writing about hadley cells and deforestation in the Amazon i may just write down verses from Brooke Fraser.... i dont know that that theory worked very well... (Nathan was right)(oh bother) ...
um........ oh yeh. i didnt think about squirrels this afternoon. thats impressive. in fact i dont think about them as much as everyone likes to think i do, its just lately you've all discovered that i like them. so every time you remind me, i think about them. or something like that. RANT RANT RANT
rant rant rant raaaaaant. I am singing to Beethovens 5th Symphony (i hope... please forgive me, Mister Beethoven, if i am wrong)...
i am in - saaaaaane, i need a ceeeeell. rant rant, rant rant, rant rant, rant RAAANT, rant rant rant rant rant rant rant RAAAAANT, rant rant rant rant. RANT. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANT.

aah... nice work on my part... i have successfully wasted the alloted time. it is now 9.46 and to fit into the schedule of being in bed within the next 10 minutes... i must go now. happy dreaming, patients.

why i have been harassing you (well one of the reasons)

the best form of procrastinating is prayer. (i think) and as i like procrastinating. and prayer. what i am going to do this week, around the all-important study, is pray. For all of you ... and your exams. Cos i hate the socks off exams, and always freak out, so if some of you are in the same boat its always comforting to know someone is praying for you.
So just in case i've weirded you out (in different ways to normal) in the last couple of days/hours... its just cos im finding out when your exams are. And sometimes its way more fun to get to the point where you say "look mate, just rack off... im trying to study for this exam tomorrow" than for me just to ask "do you have an exam tomorrow?"
so never fear... your exasperation was all for a good cause!!

So yus... to all of you out there, even those in that big place with kangaroos, feel free to tell me when your exams are, and i'll add you to my list and even if its not 24 hours of prayer and fasting, i will still say a word to the Big Guy while you're in your exam, and before your exam ...
i like the Big Guy... so the more i get to talk to him, the better....
so bring it on! I know you've all got exams!!

squirrels is beautiful... come back! come back and play RIGHT NOW!

michelle has lost all coherence and sense...... *weak cry for help can be heard in the distance*

the wheel is barely spinning, and the hamster died long, long ago...

my heart overflows with riotous profusion for you...

i think the ants at the control panel inside my head have run out of work to do... they're trying to escape

i like worms...
and ive often wondered what it would be like to eat worms... like the book "how to eat fried worms" its a good book. ill lend it to you sometime if you like?

as you can tell the study, or lack thereof, has munted my brain so much that ive turned simple.
tell helen ive turned into a retardo person... no PC for me...

nigel no-mates and PARTY FOR JOY?

two quick things:
the other day when i asked Breo how old he was (and no, nathan, i was not trying to scope/spade/scheme him =P ) i couldnt remember why i'd asked him... but last night i remembered. Almost all my friends are going to be leaving uni next year *sob* .... Oh woe is me... who will i have left?! Joy, Estie, Brehaut, Nathan, Dan, Helen, everyoneelsewhois21 are all leaving ... arrr!
I hate how uni works sometimes... you're always making new friends... every time your timetable changes, every new semester, every year, every stream swap, every new club you join, every new study spot you have ... always losing friends and have to make new ones!
We are not amused *folds arms and purses lips*

Second thing:
Is anyone (meaning EVERYONE) free this Saturday the um... 26th? Or even Friday the 25th? if i have a going away party for Joy? (maybe one that she will actually be at, this time! ooh she's so tricksie!)
Pleeeeeeeeeeze let me know ASAP if its a good idea, then i can start planning on thursday after my exam, he he.
I would offer to have it here, but you'll probably all get lost... And Joy lives in a place thats about 8m x 10m, so the logistics are disagreeable, but if anyones got any suggestions for somewhere we could have it?? Ooh ooh! IDEA!! (crikey, that hurt a bit) we could have a theme of squirrels... cos Joy gets to go home to squirrels... and that way she'd never forget us... lol tell me what you think of that idea too! heh.

i need a good slapping!

somebody please help me! Im so bored that i just watched Americas top model... BUT WAIT THERES MORE.....
AND NOW IM WATCHING THE RUGBY............ NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO................

i need a good slapping!!
I dont really get why people would want to play it.... I have vowed and declared many times before, and will reaffirm now, i am never letting my man play rugby. It looks like a vicious game.. and he might get hurt! yeah.

Aah well... seeing as im so far in this pit of boredom i'd better stop posting and get back to watching the game... not that i really understand whats going on! lol!
Im not sure which is worse... watching this rugger... or studying the Asian values debate regarding Human Rights and its cultural relativism....
i wish i could be a bum...

Oh wait, i got a question for everyone (thats "everyone" as in the 3 people that read my rantings, tee hee) If you were forced (eg me holding a hungry squirrel next to your stash of hard-earned acorns) to decide which celebrity i look most like (and you cant say none, which is the most correct answer... DAN CARTER JUST GOT A TRY!!! YAY!!!! *slap* stop it walker, that almost sounded like enthusiasm!) who would you say?

yay! you can laugh at me WITH MY PERMISSION!

when i posted (may2004) about dreams being prophetic, i briefly touched on this... but i want to cover it more in depth. Just so we can all have a laugh at all silly everyone is!
I want you all to comment and tell me what your fears are... and we'll all laugh at each other! Because most of the time what really scares us is a fear that is laughable to another person!
And i want to show you all how silly we are as humans!

I'll go first so its fair...
Im scared of dinosaurs... not really when i'm awake... but when im asleep. Which is funny, cos it doesnt seem logical, but whenever i see dinosaur movies or documentaries or even pictures before i go to sleep, i have dinosaur nightmares!! I dont know if i really have control over it?? I guess the easiest thing is to not watch jurassic park...

Im scared of the dark! another silly one! theres nothing there! well thats the fear... that there might be something there, waiting to jump out and get me!! too many horror movies i guess... anyways im not scared of it if there are other people around, or i know theres nobody hiding, or if theres a big strong man holding my hand!

I'm mildly scared of the sea/rivers because fish might bite me! I told you these were gonna be funny! i dont know why i dont like them...! no bad experiences!... i'll go swimming with shoes on... then they cant get me.. HAH!

I dont like caterpillars... we used to have swan plants outside our house and the stupid caterpillars would always be falling off or getting squashed... they had green blood, and green pooh, and they left a funny smell on your hands. And often when you would pick them up and put them back on the plant they'd just fallen off, they would squash...and all this icky green blood would go over your hand.. *shudder* gross....

Okay.. i'm bored of this now.
So tell me if you've got any funny fears that i can laugh at... surely someone else out there is as weird as me?!!

i don't have much time, as i should be studying... but my blog is getting really boring... i need to put some more spice into it!!
(i am SO philotas!! you can tell that i have work that needs doing cos i am posting!!)

So yeah... I LIKE SQUIRRELS! And i like BLUES CLUES... however Steve, from blues clues has this website, and it used to have squirrels on it... but now they're gone...!! The sight that started my love for squirrels has forsaken them! boo hoo...
www.scarysquirrel.org is a good website for skwerls...

Hmm... what else can i say? Oh yus.... i should say hi to all the cool people that recently got blogs!! welcome to the world of the geek!!
Hi Estie...!! you make me feel so loved!! Thankyou =) Roofie... you're an awesome little package of amusement! Breo.. how i love to tickle you!! hee hee! Paulie... i will now take your sleeplessness... pass it on!! I will not-sleep in fear of you appearing outside my window making dinosaur noises!!

And no, i am not scared of dinosaurs.... i CAN SO watch Jurassic Park without having nightmares!
as long as i dont go to sleep.....
ARRR!
did i mention that i dont like fish? i like to eat them, yes... but i dont like to swim incase they will bite my toes, lol! yes, i AM weird... Esther had some word for me... it was nicer than weird... something like "different" or "interesting"... lol!

And another thing... i got french kissed twice today! which makes four kisses!! Esther is a nice french kisser!! oh how i want to do it more often!! Any volunteers? *cringe* i smell your fear!

all right... thats enough michelle for you now, you gluttons... (that came from Steves webpage... it said "thats all the squirrels for you now, you gluttons" but NO, steve has forsaken my first love! no more squirrels for you to cast your visages upon! (another steve quote) )
climb you devils!
if you ask me nicely i will send you pictures of squirrels... and maybe poems.... only if you are really nice, and i am feeling agreeable... or maybe if there is french kissing involved... ESTHER!!

fairness gone overboard?!?!

there's a big hoo-hah in the news today regarding womens prisons. Apparently there's overcrowding, so some women offenders are just being kept in police cells. The problem is with the fact that the cells aren't top quality. Well, they aren't what comes to mind when we think of todays prisons.
They're actually just the bare necessities without any comfort features.
I say good on them. its time to tell offenders that they're actually getting punished for their offending, rather than treated to a free stay in a warm, comfortable place, with food and bedding provided, and visits from their family/spouses. Prison is supposed to be a punishment rather than a cost-free trip away from home.
But wait, i hear you cry, we're a western society. Whats happening to human rights. Just because you've done something wrong doesn't forfeit your rights.
Isn't this over the top? What about society's poorer people, who can barely afford to eat or heat their homes. Its like the government is saying crime pays. Cos if you commit a crime, you get a better quality of life than someone who doesn't. I'd like a free trip away from home, time away from the kids, the chance to take free correspondence papers, have my husband over for the night as a reward for good behaviour.... sounds pretty rosy to me.
Human rights entitlement? or mollycoddling? I can't help but see this as equality and fairness gone overboard!

the (illegally inhabited) sign of the (possum-wielding) bellbird

Nato wants me to post on the sign of the bellbird.... Or more accurately the illegally inhabited sign of the bellbird. Did you all know that Nato is a blatant law breaker? No, i jest! i knew he was breaking the law but he didn't, so apparently the responsibilty falls on me! (Nathan is mister trustworthy so i just assumed he already knew and had checked it out with the park ranger... lol) The place that we stayed at is really a stop for trampers, but its not technically allowed to be somewhere people sleep the night... probably self-explanatory by the fact it doesnt even have four walls...

I should really start at the start... My (and Nato's) christian group at uni decided to go to the Sign of the Bellbird, on the hills overlooking Christchurch. It used to be a hut, i believe, but now there's just one room left, with only 3.5 stone walls and a tin roof... its pretty windswept, but there's an open fire. It was great, about 20 of us crowded around the fire, with sleeping bags, food, music and awesome company =) (even the drunk guy that stumbled in and danced for us, hee hee!) Unfortunately there were only 5 of us hard-cores and all the other pikers went off home! We went to bed sometime after 3am, the coldest part of the night! and i woke up at 7 and got up to watch the sunrise (go to Nathan's blog if you want to read about me and the majesty of it all!), and everyone else got up at 8.30.
There were some awesome highlights of the night...

1. Dan and i got lost getting there... we turned left instead of right, halfway up the hill. ended up going almost the whole way around the peninsula and back almost to where we'd turned wrong in the first place (a 45 minute drive instead of 10 minutes!!!!!) and yes, technically i am a woman and am allowed to ask for directions... but i never get lost... and i will only ask for directions if i am lost... BUT I AM NEVER LOST mwa ha ha ha!! (i cant believe how much i sound like a man!!) But there was good company, a car heater, and nice music (paul colman trio ... go the Aussies... united... again, go the aussies!!)... so an extra half hour or so was nothing bad! the mystical misadventures of michelle... of which there are many!!

2. when we were almost at the sign of the bellbird we saw a possum.. A POSSUM I TELL YOU!! it was sitting in the middle of the road, but when it saw us it scampered like lightening up a vertical rock! impressive... that was my first live possum sighting! we stopped in the middle of the road to watch it, but then my car stalled (as we were on a steep slope, lol) so we thought we'd better continue the mission

3. Andre and Nathan took me on a possum hunt to see if we could see more, but we didn't ... however it was still exciting, and i would like to commend Andre and Nato for not scaring me... opportunities were ripe and ready.. and the boys know i'm insanely scared of the dark, or more precisely what could be hiding in the dark! Very impressed with their restraint! lol!

4. we goosed around till the wee sma's acting like a um 5-some (does that have a word? like when you have three its a trio, four a quartet, etc) of escaped looney bin-ners! And everyone else was great too, til they piked and went home to their warm, comfortable beds! Its a really nice experience to huddle with people around a fire, half light playing on their faces, as you tell silly stories and sing goofy songs... !

5. Nathan sleep talked ... scared the heck outa me .. i thought drunk people had entered our illegal sleeping space!!

6. i, admittedly it was freezing cold, got up to see the sun rise over the peninsula... and have some well-needed God and me time =)

7. Nath let us have breakfast at his place, and Lee and i got to bounce on his trampoline... she double-bounced me so many times!!

8. i am now tired. quite tired. after a whole week of late nights doing assignments and being upset over how things are going... but at least when i go to bed tonight (which will be very soon i feel) it is a pleasurable tired. From spending time with people that i love, who have been really friendly and welcoming to this outsider, and enjoying the simple pleasures of life! Move over paris hilton!!! Next Christian group mission: sleepover at the farm...?? lol.. that would be exciting!

so yeah, its been a really awesome time =) would love to do similar shenanegans again!!

warm fuzzies for everyone!

now that i have handed in all my late/early/bad quality assignments i have spare time. Until thursday when i have a test. then i have 2 weeks til my 2 exams. then i get holidays. (yay) but now i have spare time. And i like it! i also don't know what to do with it hee hee! So after reading Philotas' blog i got warm fuzzies and im gonna do a shout it out!
Firstly Hi to Dan and Alana who post sometimes. And a big giant llama for Nato who often has to put up with my shenanegans. And a kick in the pants for Philotas. No! i jest! A great big HURRO! and a possum... apparently they like possums in the big Oz. Apparently they like Aussies in Oz. (ha!) (no sorry, you have to understand i couldn't mention Australia without making some sort of rude comment. It wouldnt be proper)

There... that feels better! i've been in a nasty mood this afternoon... i wanted to bond with my car... get overalls on, and get my hands dirty changing oil and stuff (for the first time) but my parents wouldn't let me. And i was kinda looking forward to it. And my car needs over $150 in repairs so they are gonna pay, and i always feel bad making my parents pay for stuff.
so i'm in a bit of a fowl mood. *bwok bwok* what i need is some chickens to cheer me up! Or what i need to do is tell everyone how much i like them! I think thats working!! my bad mood is lifting!

i am dumb and so is killing other people!

just a quick post today, cos i am like Philotas in that i procrastinate something rotten!
First thing: i am an idiot. A right big gimbus. a wally. yeah.
I had this linguistics assignment that i thought was due friday 5pm and a geography assignment due thursday 5pm, so i worked late on wednesday night and all thursday morning on the geography, and handed it in at 3pm thursday. the teacher says "this is early" and im thinking, yeah well 2 hours early is a good effort from me. All is going well. Get an email from my linguistics tutor at 5pm asking where my linguistics assignment is. Turns out the geography assignment is due 5pm Friday, and the linguistics was due 4pm thursday. Oh crap!
Plus, we were supposed to write a report on all the problems we had coding sentences for the ling. assignment. It just so happens that on tuesday arvo i corrected all the problems that i had and deleted them. Oops......
So yeah. i am feeling right dumb about now.

Second thing: im gonna do a
Nathan and comment on a news article. I heard tonight that this Aussie woman who killed her autistic son gets away scot free, no sentence. Apparently she's been through enough. Okay, so i agree that everyone should be given a second chance, but what kind of message is this sending? Its same as the whole abortion debate. Its still an unwanted child, and who gave us the right to decide who lives and who dies? A foetus resulting from a rape or a failed relationship is still a foetus. A child who has a mental disorder and is hard to handle is still a child. Both precious in the sight of the Creator God.
what kind of precedent is this setting? Its like Lesley Martin who killed her mother (euthanasia). Apparently smothering her mother to death was the best thing to do. And the only reason she got pulled up for it was she was smug enough to admit doing it in a book she wrote.
who should control the right of a person to life or death? Whose prerogative is it to decide anothers fate?