Monday, June 28, 2004

random thoughts from the last couple of days

some random stuff
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Its better to be silent and look like an idiot than to open your mouth and prove it

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"when im not sure what im living for
when im not sure what im looking for"
Wow... that really hit me today - its part of a Garbage song... off the Buffy album. And it struck a cord with me. Its like these 13/4/5yr old youth group girls who dress like they're going to a brothel... they're not sure what they're living for. So they dont know what they're looking for - friend-wise, man-wise, life-wise...
its like me when i was confused last year, if im not really sure about whether or not im living for Christ, then of course im not gonna be sure about what sort of man im looking for. If im not making a firm stand for christ, then im not going to be looking for a man who is. Yeah, im not trying to go anywhere with this. It just made some sense when i heard the line of the song today. Dont think i really saw it at the time, but i see it clearly now...

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I have a problem with feet, lol. i only really realised it the other day.. i hate feet... wont touch them.. they're gross. So because i have so many strange fears, i figured i should overcome this one, so i made Estie put her feet in water and i exfoliated and moisturised and massaged them. Yup. it was a bit gross. But i managed it. Lemme announce to you all that Estie's feet are the only feet i have EVER touched (apart from my own, my dad's ONCE, and maybe some babies)... yeah... feet are gross. maybe now ive done it once i will be able to do it for other people?

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i gave a guy a back massage the other day... not too shabby eh? another weirdness barrier slightly overcome, although it is still weird. Feet are intimate, backs are intimate. i think massage is about bringing pleasure to another person, and that can be weird. Dunno if i'll be doing that again soon

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lol.. My brother was really good friends with this guy, M, when he was younger, and then they drifted apart. M was in the army, and he is occasionsally down at our church. The other day my brother was complaining about not having many friends, and M was at our church on sunday. So i asked him over to tea. Cos i know my brother is too shy to ever do anything like that. kinda like setting them up. but as friends, lol. i hope its not like im meddling. i know my brother needs a good christian guy to influence him, and show him that people do care about him. Only downside is, i'm cooking tea. i hope i dont poison him or anything, then he might never want to come back lol.
Oh just for laughs, he was one of the many many many many many (you get the picture) guys i have had crushes on in my lifetime. I liked him from when i was about 9 to about 12... lol ha ha ha)

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i think i almost got chatted up in the petrol station the other day!! ten points to petrol station guys. they're usually a really nice bunch, dont laugh at you when you cant get the petrol cap off your parents car (ha ha) tell you you have lovely hair, and i even had the door opened for me 3 our of 4 times, all by different men. Nice effort fellas. I'd like to see some more of that eh?!

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i just told my guy friends they were weird for calling each other hot. and they said they'd marry one another if one was a girl. But after i called them weird i realised that i'd marry Esther if she was a boy! Esther's great. If any boys out there think they're like Esther... i will marry you in an instant, lol!
Michelle: "When Esther and i get married, everything will be perfect"
Esther: "yeah, we'll touch each others feet every night"
crikey... i dont know about every night, lol...

10 Comments:

Blogger Notions Incognito said...

In respective order,

Yes

It hits nearly everyone at some time. Hits me all the time. =)

Wow... A modern-day Jesus =) I don't think it's unusual to not really have a burning desire to touch other people's feet =) (oooh, look, a triple-negative sentence construction... sorry, geeking out again).

Massage is all good so long as it's done for the right reasons and within appropriate boundaries. I don't think it's about pleasure - it's about pain... when people are all tense and they can't relax and they're stressed out or even actually have sore muscles - massage really helps.

No comments come to mind.

Not commenting on that, I'd no doubt get myself into trouble.

Hmm... I'm scared. =)

1:25 pm  
Blogger Nathan said...

Heh. Having multiple interestings on one post makes comments a bit more random.

I think christian girls should bycott going out with guys who aren't taking an active stand for Christ. Maybe?

1:46 pm  
Blogger Michelle said...

Um.. dont know your name sorry... serves you right for being incognito! I agree to a big extent - massage is about helping other people, but for me its weird. It seems quite ironic i guess, that i like hugging and whatever, but i dont like beneficial touching. Although i guess hugs are beneficial =)

Nathan, its definately a good idea to not date someone who is as dedicated to Christ as you are =) Its like Reuben's whole Josh Harris dating stuff... lol, that issues been done to death. So i wont give my opinion =) i'll just think about squirrels instead. Climb you beauties!

7:15 pm  
Blogger Nathan said...

eh?
That comment looks like it contains either a burn or a typo

9:02 pm  
Blogger Kelly said...

To quote ye enlightened Nathan: "I think christian girls should bycott going out with guys who aren't taking an active stand for Christ."
Doesn't that work both ways?
But yeah, for sure.

The relationships chatter is spreading through blogs like disease!

9:23 pm  
Blogger Nathan said...

Relationships are a disease, a cancer of this planet. And I, are the cure.

10:03 pm  
Blogger Nathan said...

I am the cure. Dang!

Yeah. good point kelly - guys should do it as well.

10:04 pm  
Blogger Michelle said...

ha ha ha ha! you guys are so funny =)

Nathan - that wasnt a burn or a typo.. i was using the personal pronoun 'you' usually used to refer to hypothetical situations. In older English, this would have been 'one'. Perhaps i should revert to that to lessen the chances of further confusion.
eh. You're right, one should definately not date someone who is less committed to Christ than onesself.
Or some garbage like that. :P

Reuben.. i had more thoughts, yup MORE !! heck... anyway, on the massage thing .. you're right, thankyou for nicely taking the piss, of course its not like an erotic experience, its about alleviating someone else's pain. Lol... i wasnt saying that i got some sort of sick pleasure out of giving Nathan a back massage, lol! All i meant was that it feels weird to be rubbing your hands all over someone when you dont usually touch them. Like its usually girls that massage each other, and its usually girls that are hugging and cuddling up to one another, you dont often find two guys who will give each other a back massage!

Kelly... mwa ha ha ha... relationships are going to infiltrate every blog before you know it! (this time the 'you' i used is referring directly to the object of my comment - Kelly, as opposed to ... no wait. thats bosh.

11:39 am  
Blogger Nathan said...

Heh.
Obviously there has to be a little bit of allowance for variation, because if we each have a different value for 'standing for christ', and everyong should not go out with someone with less 'standing for christ' than them, then no-one will go out....
Ah for pointless, ill-applied mathematics

12:17 pm  
Blogger Notions Incognito said...

I agree Jess, I think maybe girls are in many ways closer with other girls than guys are with guys. The whole culture of our society doesn't help though, for guys. I mean, as I guy you generally have to be a little cautious who, when, how and why you touch someone - either male or female.

But I think there are many other reasons girls relate at a deeper level. I think girls are just wired to relate to what's going on in people's heads - guys are wired to relate to what's going on. For instance, girls talk (seemingly without end) together (seemingly about nothing). Guys play sport together and talk about power and politics. So I guess if us guys wanted to build closer relationships we should do less and talk more about nothing =) Heh heh...

2:37 pm  

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